::I have a lover (love dismantled)::


Obsessed by you
Now how fallen i am!
Into love's pit ive descended.
Deeper and darker by the hour.

My want and need and desire conquer
All reason of mind,
NOw tossing a how do i know question
So dense, so charged

If this be real love,
What of my first love?

Insanely confused
Utterly dismantled,
I'm bitten by memories of illicit delight,
Then teased into pleasure's tormented ravine.

For God and a passionate cause
We keep a subtle fire
For love's intensity full of inquiry,
Why keep my fast? (No fast could i keep)

So shameful and shameless,
Just blissful yet peverse
The more of you i have
The darker the word, desire.

Sucked by you,
You suck my soul.

There's one thing I have to say so I'll be brave
You were what I wanted, I gave what I gave
I'm not sorry I met you
I'm not sorry it's over
I'm not sorry there's nothing to save
I'm not sorry there's nothing to save

i sit here, feeling lost inside
reaching out my hand in an empty space
trying for so long to go back to that perfect place
slip slide run hide
no matter what i do i cannot go back
to that place i so long for
because you're no longer here
and when i finally die
i know that my life was worth it
to have that memory
that perfect place
which exists now only in my head